Was it insane to throw out the goals and the schedule for October? Maybe.
But we’re two weeks into the insanity.
May as well check in on the progress.
Have I kept it up?
Kept up the tossing of the schedule? Yes.
Kept up working on whatever project I feel like working on? Pretty much, yes.
So am I actually writing?
Yes. On a “normal” month I’d have word goals. Not having them means I can’t tell myself that how much I’ve written is good or bad. It just … is. That’s a weird feeling. It means I can’t judge myself, which I’m normally really good at.
So, am I writing?
I guess we leave it at that.
So what am I working on?
Most of the words this week actually were on the blog. I did a post wrapping up my September reading (I always do these) and a post playing around with a character idea. It’s been a LONG time since I posted from the idea journal so definitely comment on it if you enjoyed it!
I did also get another chapter done on the SlasherWIP. It was a tough chapter because it needed to feature a pretty gruesome death, making it difficult to not tip over the fine line between horror and thriller. I think I accomplished it with enough of a fade to black moment, but it’ll be something to check on in edits.
I also teased a little more about our main character from Noises over on Instagram. I love this girl.
Do I still feel productive?
Yes and no.
Yes, on a day-to-day basis when I put things away for the day and get ready to head into work I feel productive. I’m proud of what I’ve managed to accomplish for the day and satisfied.
BUT it’s still really hard to fight that inner critic who wants to harp on the goals and think about totals. I’ll have to figure out a way to get her to be quiet. Really, having goals is a GOOD THING but when you’re an irrational perfectionist (like me) you have to watch out for yourself and find a balance. In the absence of that balance lately and realizing that the amount of harping on myself I was doing was actually making it HARDER to get things accomplished, I decided to try this radical swing the other way.
It honestly might take more than one month to repair the damage I did.
We shall see.
Alright, that’s it for the update today. See you again soon!